Unbearable Suffering: A Personal Battle With the Puzzling Suffering of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It began on a dreary Monday in the morning in September 2016. I was working as a teacher, attempting to manage a new class, when a intense sensation sprang behind my one eye. This was followed by quick stabs, reminiscent of lightning bolts. As the school day progressed, the pain eased and then returned with greater force. Multiple times that day I left a teaching assistant with worksheets and ran to the staff bathroom to soak my face with cold water. I took aspirin, but the agony remained unbearable.

The headaches appeared repeatedly that autumn, and again in the spring, soon forming an yearly pattern. September and October were the worst, then February and March. I could predict the pattern: a warning sensation in the shower, early twinges on the train, full-on agony in the classroom by mid-morning. In late 2019, a doctor eventually referred me to a neurologist and I was diagnosed with cluster headache disorder.

This condition often start with severe discomfort around one eye that lasts for three hours.

Approximately 1 in 1000 people are affected by the disorder, and males are more often affected. Attacks typically begin with abrupt, severe pain focused on a single eye that reaches its peak within minutes and continues for as long as three hours. Episodes occur in cycles, every day or multiple times a day, and are associated with red or watery eyes, drooping eyelids or facial sweating. There exists the episodic form, which occurs in periodic bouts; others have chronic attacks, defined by the lack of extended symptom-free periods.

What connects patients is the intensity. One research paper scored the pain at 9.7 10, higher than bone fractures or other conditions. Another found 64% of cluster headache patients experienced suicidal thoughts amid bouts; the figure fell to four percent when they were pain-free.

One patient, 74, a chronic sufferer from Wales, finds this understandable. Her episodes began when she was a toddler. “I would hurl myself on the ground and hit my head. That was attributed to being a difficult child,” she says. Her condition deteriorated through her youth. Alcohol in her adolescence, similar to many triggers, made things worse. After drinking sherry at her graduation party, she remembers hardly being able to see on the bus home.

Her relatives often interpreted her episodes as drunken episodes. Understanding finally came from her father and then from her partner, her spouse. “I was very lucky to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs found clerical work after relocating, but often concealed her condition. She was dismissed from one job, in part due to time off during attacks. Her breakthrough diagnosis came in the early 2000s at a specialist neurology center.

Nevertheless, the failure to organize life around unpredictable attacks took its effect. She particularly disliked being unable to plan outings, being seen as unreliable as a colleague, and even having to be looked after by her family during the incapacitation caused by the worst episodes. “It robs you of the small freedoms we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She remembers obtaining tickets for a major concert, only to have an episode inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been documented throughout the ages. “The first description of headache comes by way of the Mesopotamians in 4000BC,” write experts in a book on the topic. They attributed the disease to an evil entity who attacked his victims' heads.

Ancient medical texts propose unusual treatments for what some experts would describe as a migraine. In the middle ages, severe headache was recognised as a separate condition, with treatments including bloodletting to other, more folk cures.

It was a Dutch physician who provided the first detailed description of a cluster-type attack. In his writings, he speaks of a patient “suffering with a very intense headache happening and disappearing daily at fixed hours”.

Cluster headaches were only formally recognised by global medical societies in the late 1980s. From the mid-20th century to the 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a issue with a key artery which supplies blood to the head. Leading specialists in treating the condition explain this.

In 1998, scientists published the findings of a study for which they had induced attacks in patients and observed the attacks in a imaging machine. The results, featured in a major medical publication, showed increased activity of the hypothalamus, which is responsible for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in discomfort, and a deactivation when they recovered.

In spite of such advances, diagnosis remains delayed. One man's symptoms began in 1986 and felt like “a modelling balloon being inflated behind my one eye”. Doctors thought he had a sinus issue; he had multiple operations before eventually being correctly identified in 2014, after a doctor looked up his symptoms.

Neurologists say wait times in diagnosis and treatment happen because patients are seldom seen mid-attack. “You're tired and depressed, but not in severe pain,” a doctor says. He proceeds by eliminating other common head pain conditions, such as tension-type headache, before confirming cluster headaches. A detailed patient history is crucial: on which side do signs occur? For how long? What time of year? Are there triggers, such as alcohol? Certain characteristics such as redness, drooping eyelids and nasal congestion help confirm cluster headaches. Once identified, patients may be referred to specialist centers. But a lot of first arrive to emergency rooms or are given inadequate therapies.

A charity trustee, 78, has experienced the condition for most of her adult life, although she hasn't had an attack since 2016. When she was in her 20s, she had her teeth pulled because dentists misinterpreted her symptoms. She believes the dental profession still need much more awareness. When a sufferer sought help from a support group, it was she who replied. I remember calling a support line during an attack in 2021; a reassuring volunteer talked me through oxygen treatment and medication until the episode passed.

National guidelines on management advise that sufferers are offered high-flow oxygen therapy and/or a specific medication delivered by nasal spray. No tablets or opioids should be used. Prophylactic choices include verapamil, which reportedly helps manage the bouts of some people.

But consultant specialists believe the guidance need updating to reflect a more defined treatment process and help general practitioners avoid incorrect prescriptions. For episodic patients, timing is critical: “The length of the bout dictates the treatment.” Brief cycles with occasional attacks are handled with acute treatment only. More prolonged or more severe periods require preventative medications such as certain drugs, sometimes paired with corticosteroids. A significant number of patients also receive a nerve block injection during a cycle – an injection into the side of the skull where the discomfort is that decreases nerve signals.

The national guidelines need revising to reflect a
Michael Hardin
Michael Hardin

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